Wow..another two months down!

Well, I turn 30 next week and I am really starting to evaluate my life. I feel like I was in a better place at 25..and now I have taken about 10 steps backwards. Why do I feel that way?? Well, I want to make a list:
1. I am a substitute teacher and I was on the fast track to being an administrator. I went to school and put myself in student loan debt to sub??!!
2. I went from owning my home..(well I still own it) but now we are renting again. I hate renting! It is an added stress of really never settling in.

I will tell you that I went back to the blog I wrote about my new year's resolutions..I am taking better care of myself. I have started to see a therapist, I am now on medicine and I have lost about 35 lbs. I still have about 15 to go but I am feeling better about myself.

I have met some new friends and enjoy spending time with them however I feel like a piece of my life and I are missing..it is my husband.

Finally starting to see the light

Well, here it is! Another month has almost past and I am finally starting to adjust to this new life as a soldier's wife! Right now, my husband is away at training and surprisingly, I have lost 12 lbs! I guess all that running around with two kids is paying off. There are still things that I dislike about Alaska:

It is August, 50 degrees and it rains every single day!!!! I mean every single day!!!

Road Construction is everywhere and it takes twice as long to get anywhere

Other than that, I guess I don't have much to complain about. We had Vacation Bible School this week and it was amazing to get out and have somewhere to go. I have another teaching interview this week...fingers crossed that I get the position. It is right on base and everything would be right there. I am not getting my hopes up...I didn't get the last three positions I interviewed for.

I am finally starting to meet people and make friends. It is nice to be able to hang out and make it to the gym every once in a while but the kids really keep me busy. It is already 8 and it is my son's bedtime so I better go.

Here and still adjusting

Well, getting a job anywhere in education is possible when you arrive at the right time of the year...we arrived at the very end of the school year because the school year ends a week before Memorial day here....so still no job...I have not been without a job since I started working at 16. Even in the summers, I would work part time or do summer school...

Times have gotten rough and I do not mean financially. We have been very blessed in that department. I mean emotionally. This is where I become selfish for a few minutes and really just put on paper how I am feeling.

I love my husband and what he is doing for his country. I love my two children and do not know what I would do without them...but I AM NOT A STAY AT HOME MOM!! I do not know how people do it...I give them all the credit in the world because being a stay at home mom makes me lazy...Some people will not understand how I can say that but I am not. It is wrecking me...we only have one car at the moment and are waiting to get another one until I get a job. My kids have been in daycare since they were both 8 weeks old..my three year old is having withdraw. He misses playing with friends, being in class to learn his letters, numbers, shapes and just discover the world around him. Now I will say as an educator..I do all of that with my children but it is not the same when MOM is teaching him or when someone else is teaching him.

Also, I am a social butterfly. I love hanging out with friends and spending time with other people..I need some adult interaction!! It is hard to meet people...(my husband is the shy one and does not put himself out there in that way)...I feel very isolated.