Only a month to go!!

Well, we almost made it and guess what..I got a teaching job!!!! I really think that God has a plan and opens the door when the time is right. I could not be happier. I keep reading my posts from when I first started this blog and I am in a completely different place now. I have lost 65 lbs, got a teaching job, moved on the military base and just have an amazing life. The only thing to make it better would be to have my husband here. There is a part of our family missing and even with having it all..none of it matters without him. Deployments and time away bring us so much closer together and give us a chance to reconnect. Communication is key so I do not ever think that we will have a problem with keeping our communication open. I could not ask for a better husband (not that we don't fight) but he is just amazing and we help and motivate each other to be the best people that we can be. I am better with him. I love military life but they are already talking about deployment again but at least we will have a year together...anyway, I am going to have to write more later..time for baths and bed...

Wow..another two months down!

Well, I turn 30 next week and I am really starting to evaluate my life. I feel like I was in a better place at 25..and now I have taken about 10 steps backwards. Why do I feel that way?? Well, I want to make a list:
1. I am a substitute teacher and I was on the fast track to being an administrator. I went to school and put myself in student loan debt to sub??!!
2. I went from owning my home..(well I still own it) but now we are renting again. I hate renting! It is an added stress of really never settling in.

I will tell you that I went back to the blog I wrote about my new year's resolutions..I am taking better care of myself. I have started to see a therapist, I am now on medicine and I have lost about 35 lbs. I still have about 15 to go but I am feeling better about myself.

I have met some new friends and enjoy spending time with them however I feel like a piece of my life and I are missing..it is my husband.

About 6 weeks in..can I survive this??

I have to really evaluate my situation..do I really want to spend my life wishing it away until the next time that my husband comes home? I don't know if I can keep doing this. I am still subbing which absolutely sucks and a single mother. My kids are without their father and now he acts like I don't want to answer his messages. We really need to get on the same page soon or this is going to crush us. WE don't understand what each is going through and that makes it hard. On top of all of this no matter how hard I try, I really hate Alaska. I don't like the weather, their job opportunities or just the way everything is so much more expensive. I miss the beach and the sun and just the east coast to tell you the truth. I really don't have anymore to add right now. Something has to give or change or I will not survive this!!