About 6 weeks in..can I survive this??

I have to really evaluate my situation..do I really want to spend my life wishing it away until the next time that my husband comes home? I don't know if I can keep doing this. I am still subbing which absolutely sucks and a single mother. My kids are without their father and now he acts like I don't want to answer his messages. We really need to get on the same page soon or this is going to crush us. WE don't understand what each is going through and that makes it hard. On top of all of this no matter how hard I try, I really hate Alaska. I don't like the weather, their job opportunities or just the way everything is so much more expensive. I miss the beach and the sun and just the east coast to tell you the truth. I really don't have anymore to add right now. Something has to give or change or I will not survive this!!