I cannot believe the last time that I wrote was when my husband was at JROTC and gone for a month. Well, now he is gone again for a year. He left in December and we are only about a month in. I have thought about so many things while he has been gone. I never thought of myself as someone that is defined by a man..I mean I have my own career (even though I am just subbing right now) and I am very independent. I can go out with the girls and have a good time. I can create and keep a routine with my children as well as just spend some great quality time with them. Why am I saying all of this?? Well, I am trying to find this confident, independent woman!! I have never missed anybody this much in my life! I am a mess and cannot seem to get out of this! I am trying but it is just so hard. I do think however there are some factors that are adding to this depression:
1. I am hundreds miles away from friends and family
2. It is constantly snowing in Alaska! It has already snowed over 6 feet and it is only December
3. There are only about 5 to 6 hours of sunlight a day and it isn't even sunlight..it is dusk.
4. I have been off work for 2 weeks due to Christmas vacation
So with all of this going on, I just feel lost and like I am just going through the motions right now. I really can't be like that because of my children and just my overall well being.
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